Just dont understand why some people are just so unappreciative. im not obliged to help but still I do. when things cropped up. fingers are pointed at me. i knew i didnt made a mistake. okie. probably I shouldnt take it too hard. but still. prob its all my fault. i gotta learn to reject. its all bcos i dunno how to reject people. i am at a disadvantage. relationships between people would be better if everyone just be a lil more appreciative. i feel so lousy cos its like im not being asked nicely instead i feel like im being ordered.

As usual. got up at 7.30. took a bathe. went back my old house to get my btt results slip. ken send me to work. i have completed all work given by my supervisor. so bored. havent been so free except my first 2 days at work. e following written are crap.

Hmm. after started working in discovery. my weight hasnt increase but my face is rounder. so sad. haiz. gotta start losing e fats. feel so bloated. so fat. irregular meals. my meals can range from 1 to 3 meals a day. haha. lazy to exercise too. getting lazier and lazier each day.

Been thinking of what I gonna do after graduation. guess im gonna work in discovery till late september. den go for a holiday. haha. but dunno got money anot. moving house. thereafter gotta start looking for job and save money for degree. always believe that at least a degree is necessary in singapore. my current goals are to get my driving license before 21. sucessfully lose weight and maintain. go on a holiday before i step into the cruelty of the society. to start saving up money. Cos I have never managed to save more than 1K in my bank. e only time when I had more than 1K in my bank is when i received my one month pay from jay gee enterprise.

Getting bored of life and singapore. its so small there's nothing to do. getting sick of aunt's nagging. getting sick of myself. so careless. blur. so bored. really bored. haha. entertaining myself. well. i shall end here cos its gonna be never ending.

I woke up at 9+.. Took a shower and headed home right away.. Was afraid my aunt would nag at me if she woke up.. I waited for ken to come and fetch me.. He came at around 10+.. We headed to Johor.. Just a lil jam.. Arrived at around noon.. Ken drove me to a eating place where we had ba kut teh.. Then we went to Holiday Plaza.. We shopped around but not much stuff to buy.. I bought a shorts, some miscellaneous stuff and lotsa snacks.. Ken also managed to get his car accessories.. Were getting bored of the place so we decided to go somewhere else.. He was suggesting angsana (dont know if spelt correctly).. We passed by carrefour and slightly later.. .. We were lost.. Haha.. I got so bored.. I started taking pictures with his camera.. Got sleepy after some time and fell asleep..

When I woke up.. He has yet to find the right way.. I remembered him mentioning shah alam.. Dat was how far we went.. After 20 minutes or so.. Ken finally found the way back.. We decided to go carrefour instead.. Wasnt as big as the one in suntec.. Bought some miscellaneous stuff again den headed back to singapore..The journey back was quite long and ken was getting a lil frustrated.. Finally back in Singapore at around 7.20.. We went Joo Chiat for dinner den he drove to suntec to pick reys and ying xue.. He dropped us off at black..

Was a lil frustrated cos reys wasnt in a good mood.. But things got better later.. Ken msg me at around 3 and I went down.. He sent me home.. Got home at around 3.30 but the door was locked.. Expected.. I walked back to my old home.. Ken waited for me at the gate and drove me home.. I took a shower after I got home and fell asleep soon enough..

It was a long and tiring day but I had fun though.. Enjoyed myself..

The next day.. I got up at 11+.. Went downstairs to buy some canned food and vegetables and made pasta.. Took a shower and met ken downstairs.. He sent me to Lin's place.. Saw vin, fen, shi ya.. .. I left her place at 2.45.. Ken sent me home.. I made lunch.. Sat on the couch watched tv till 6.30.. Packed my stuff, washed the dishes then headed home with a heavy heart.. Was lucky aunt wasnt around.. Was in the room when she came back.. Could hear her complaining about me from the living room.. Argh.. Just dont understand.. Who is the one in the wrong..? Why m i restricted..? Im trying so hard to be please her and do things her way but I still have friends.. Im working everyday from mon to fri.. Cant I meet up with my friends on sat..? Just dont get it.. Compare.. Compare and Compare.. Dats what she love to do.. Why compare me to my cousin who doesnt enjoy clubbing or going to ktvs..? Compare me to other young adults who goes out everyday.. Just hope she would understand one day..

I have finally finished my database after 1 month and 3 days.. Supposingly I should be feeling happy but things just aint the way they are..

After having dinner at home yesterday.. I left home at 8.45 to meet reys at somerset.. Linli got up the train at eunos and we waited for reys at cine long john.. She came at approximately 10.30.. They wanted to go black for a drink so we walked over.. Ken was reaching in 15 mins when we were in the queue.. So we came out of the queue.. He sent me home den brought them for supper at simpang bedok.. Thereafter he sent them home..

Thank you for sending me home as well as reys and linli.. Appreciated your effort..

I lost my two weeks old mobile phone yesterday.. Cant even remember how I lost it.. Argh.. I probably dropped it or it was stolen.. So sad.. I wouldnt mind losing my old phone.. I waited so so long to own the phone i wanted so much.. And yet.. :( I have never been so affected losing any other item.. Curse the person who took my phone.. So mean.. If ever I were to pick up a hp.. I would return it to the person cos I know exactly how it feels to lose your hp.. I wouldnt feel good taking someone's hp knowing that that person would be so sad.. I believe in retribution..

Just cant get over it.. All my pictures and msgs and everything.. Most importantly all the numbers.. Argh.. I was intending to upload photos yesterday after I get home after work but.. This is really a good lesson for me not to be so careless anymore..

Gonna get back my line later during lunch time..

Woke up at 7.30 in the morning.. Took a shower and was ready to go out by around 8.20.. I called ken when I was downstairs and he asked if I received his msg.. He was on the way down to fetch me to work as said yesterday.. He would be arriving 20 mins later.. I didnt take it as a promise cos I didnt expect him to get up in time.. And so.. I waited and waited till 30mins passed and the time was 8.50.. I had to b at work early today cos I have to get some stuff from adeline desk.. I was afraid her department people would ask lotsa questions if they were to see me getting stuff from her desk.. Intended to get coffee from spinelli.. I called him and blew my top.. I would actually be at work at latest 8.50.. He said he would be there in 5 mins and it turned out to be 10.. By the time he arrived.. It was 9.01.. Time obviosly didnt allow me to get my coffee.. Arrived late at work and no coffee.. Craving for my caramel latte.. Argh.. I appreciated his effort in coming down but I just cant control my anger..

I woke up at 6.30.. Took a shower and went to cine with my aunt to join 400+ people in the power start my hyundai.. The whole process lasted to 12+.. Unfortunately didnt win anything.. Later we went to crystal jade for lunch with my cousins.. Thereafter.. I proceeded to work..

I got there right on time.. Started packing goodie bags for the Star Wars screening for my company.. Wrong dressing.. I was wearing skirt which restrict my movements.. After all registered and took their goodie bags, the science of star wars show started at 2.40.. I went to join my cousins and aunt at another threatre.. Nearly fell asleep.. After the movie.. We went shopping around for a short while..

I met ken at taka taxi-stand.. We went to cine then later he send me to suntec to meet reys.. Waited more than 1/2 hour outside her shop.. We took the train to orchard and met linli there.. We sat at Lido mac waiting for hazel and yingxue.. Hazel came not long after.. Linli went home at around 11 and yingxue came around 11+.. We joined the queue and got in only slightly after 2.. I took the cab home at 3.. So tired.. Long long day..

As usual.. Time flies and this is my seventh week in Discovery.. Learn lotsa stuff which could not be learnt in school.. Been doing lotsa stuff too such as digitising, dubbing, sending documents, databases, stockcount, premiums, mailmerges, meetings, filing ads, program descriptions, events etc. Its a battlefield everyday at work.. Race against time.. Especially this week.. Busy to the extent that I dont even have time to go drink water.. I finished work half an hour to an hour later than the stated time almost everyday but I didnt mind cos I enjoyed working there.. Blur me have to learn to be more alert and reponsible at work.. Cant afford to be forgetful and blur..

Thank you has become my top most used phrase and sorry being the second.. I cannot remember a day without thank yous for the past seven week.. I think politeness is important cos the real working society is so complex.. It does help being polite and I really appreciate it when people are willing to help when I ask cos I know they dont have to especially knowing that im just an intern.. I think Im not as unlucky as I thought so when I know my posting.. The people in the office especially my department makes me feel recognised and respected as an individual.. My supervisor invites me for marketing meetings although I dont really enjoy it..

Adeline has been of much help.. She is also an intern but we are in different department.. Shes a very sincere but blur gal.. Her blurness is always creating laughter but it can also drive people nuts.. And I always tease her for eating so slowly.. Angela wouldnt believe that there would be someone more blur than me if she were to read this.. Haha.. :X Shes always the one who waits for me after work.. who accompanies me to the spooky B2 storeroom.. whogoes for lunch with me.. who accompanies me whenever I asked her to.. But.. There is always a But.. Shes leaving this saturday.. So sad.. *sobs* My remaining four weeks would so boring.. Im sure i would miss her company, her existence and HER.. I really appreciate your company and everything.. Thank You..! *HUGS*

I went to work as usual.. Busy busy day at work.. Called Angela during lunch time to ask if she wanna meet up after my work and she said okie.. We decided on fishermans.. After work.. I went to simei to search for flowers but there wasnt anything that I suppose she would fancy.. So I went to the florist at century to try my luck.. I manage to get blue rose for her.. Then I went to swensens to get her favourite black forest..

I took a cab to her place.. On the way to her house at the void deck.. I met my bro.. So coincidental.. I continued walking towards the stairs after exchanging a few words.. Suddenly.. I realised I dont have a lighter.. So I borrowed one from my bro.. I was really lucky.. I wouldnt know what to do if I didnt see him.. I had to take the stairs cos I was afraid she would see me if I took the elevator.. When I was at 5th floor.. I tried to put the candles on the cake but it was too hard and I was too nervous.. My hands were trembling.. I ended up breaking a candle and a chocolate decor.. Haha.. To think of it.. I feel so stupid.. Im the one who wanna surprise Angela but I ended up to be more nervous.. I called her to tell her I was reaching.. Immediately after I hang up the call.. I lighted up the candles.. I sat down on the stairs.. She came out and was saw me sitting on the stairs looking rather surprised.. But I only succeeded half of it cos I was so nervous that I couldnt sing her a birthday song.. I told her I was very nervous and that she could just make a wish and blow out the candles.. Later.. I joined her and her family and Jeff for dinner at a coffeeshop near her house.. We went back to her house after dinner.. I cut the cake when she was showering.. Ken finally came at around 10.30.. Jeff and Angela went to get drinks and titbits at a 7-eleven around pasir ris.. They brought along a bottle of vodka.. We actually intended to go fishermans but since they bought so many stuff.. We went to the park instead.. There was four of us.. Jeff and ken just got to know each other.. The usual scene is guys listen while gals talk since we are sistas.. But it wasnt so.. The guys talk while we listen.. They got more stuff to talk than us.. So hilarious.. Basically talk about bike and the past.. We hang around till about 1.30 when it started drizzling.. Ken send jeff and angela home.. On the way.. I called my bro but he was already asleep.. I knew I was doom.. I didnt wanna call home cos I was afraid that my aunt would scold me like she always do and I dun wana wake anyone up.. I supposed everyone was already sound asleep but I was wrong.. My aunt was waiting for me.. I msg her that I was going back to my house to sleep and she called me.. I picked up her 4th call.. Got lectured.. Ken was sending me to Jurong while my aunt was lecturing on the other side.. I lied that I was already home.. Feel so bad but didnt wanted her to worry and telling her the truth would mean suffering to my ears.. Halfway through.. The call ended due to poor recep.. I called back but she didnt wanna talk to me.. Felt terrible.. When we were reaching my mum's friend place.. She called to ask if ken could send her and her friend home as well cos she was already done with her stuff.. Being a nice guy.. Im sure he wouldnt reject.. Haha.. Anyway it was on the way cos he need to send me home.. I fell asleep and woke up felling pain in my neck.. Got home at 3+.. Took a shower and went to sleep.. But I fell asleep only at 4+..

The next day.. I woke up at 7.30.. Called ken twice and he just woke up.. I told him it was fine and I could go to work myself but he insisted on sending me.. Of cos I wouldnt reject his good offer.. How could I disappoint him.. :X Haha.. He arrived at around 8.45 if I wasnt wrong.. But I went down only at 9.. He went to fetch adeline from tanah merah then drove us to changi biz park.. Im sure I would need coffee to make up for my insufficient sleep.. I didnt wanna doze off at work so I insisted on getting coffee even though I was already late.. He went to get my fav, caramel latte while I waited in the car with adeline.. Got to work only at 9.20.. I msg him slightly after noon to ask him where he was cos I was still at the office which means the only eating place would be closed by the time I finished my work or either there wouldnt be much food left.. I could actually go for lunch at 1.15.. Just before I left my desk.. I remembered I had to finish dubbing a tape before 2 which was a last minute job given to me so I had to stay back to finish up my work.. When I was done.. It was already 1.50.. I told ken that I be down in 15 but he ended up waiting more than 30 mins.. So sorry.. We went simpang bedok.. After lunch.. He sent us back before heading home.. After work I called him.. He was on the way to the east area.. He asked if I wanted to wait for him to fetch me home.. I told him we could go book Angela chalet before I go home.. He was 5 mins late cos he said he would try to reach before 7.. He drove past simei to go pasir ris and it was already 7.20 when we were at simei.. Didnt want him to be late for work so I went home instead.. I think owe him a BIG thank you for everything..

I dun understand why some people are jus so sarcastic.. So what if your english is better than others.. That doesnt give you any reason to make fun of people and to luff at people.. It jus imply that you are childish.. I think its the wrong attitude of these people.. Everyone has a pride.. I always believe in respecting others.. Only den.. You will earn respect from others.. Before making fun of people.. Please.. Please think about yourself.. You aint any better..!

My cousin, Emily and I went to Sheer Romance at Fareast on Sunday.. She saw this bra.. Its some sort of a lacy tube bra.. It was on offer and customers are not allowed to try it.. She wasnt sure of the size conversion of cm and inch.. With the help of the salesgirl.. She bought 3.. Yellow, red and blue.. She didnt want to buy the blue one cos it didnt had her actual size.. I told her to jus buy cos most prob i b able to fit.. She could try when she gets home if it fits.. If it doesnt.. She can jus passed to me..

Later we went to tampines.. We were on the downriding escalator when I saw a Sheer Romance outlet in tampines mall.. We went in and there was another colour, purple which was not available in the fareast outlet.. Out of all the colours.. I think purple was the nicest.. I told my cousin to buy.. She took out the ones that she bought from Fareast to check the right size.. I realised the size of the blue one is incorrect.. Its supposed to be bigger than my cousin actual size but its smaller.. She checked with the salesgirl what size it is converted to cm.. And indeed its incorrect.. My cousin asked if she could change it for the purple one cos the salesgirl at fareast gave the wrong info.. The salesgirl at Tampines called her supervisor and we were told that we cannot change it.. My cousin fume up and made a big fuss.. I was actually rather embarassed cos it wasnt the fault of salesgirls working in the Tampines outlet.. I whispered to my cousin that they are different outlets and they are innocent.. I told her we could go over to fareast to change.. The salesgirls then told us that we cant change it even if we went to fareast.. This time.. I fume up.. I said it was ridiculous.. Its the salesgirl fault bcos she provided incorrect information and customers are to bear the mistake.. What m i to do with it..? What kinda service is this..? We bought the products less than 2 hours ago and it's new but we cant change..? The salesgirl called her supervisor again and my cousin spoke to her.. The conclusion is still the same.. The reason was they need to do stock count.. And the supervisor said the salesgirl's words are not guaranteed.. Then it's the company's fault.. They should train their staff.. If what they say cannot be guaranteed.. Then why they need salesgirls.. From what I know.. Salesgirls are there to provide customer with help and to provide CORRECT information.. What kinda stupid reason.. Since there's nothing the useless supervisor could do.. My cousin said forget it.. Im not going to patronize your shop again and hung up.. The salesgirls then wrapped up the items my cousin bought from fareast and apologised.. My cousin apologised to them that she is aware that it wasnt their fault..

Their service is actually good.. The salesgirls are friendly and willing to help but their after sales service is fcuk up.. The salesgirl practically ignore you after you make your purchase.. Probably not for everyone but at least for some.. It doesnt matter whether its a sales item or not.. The issue is the service.. An item which you purchased is not exchangable.. It doesnt matter if they have stated it but have they..? NO..! Providing wrong information and customers having to bear the cost of the mistake.. Doesnt it makes the shop a "Hei Dian".. It is just like a shop who cheat customers by giving them false information in hoaxing them to buy then later when customer realise it.. They are told that it not exchangable.. Probably they should learn from other successful companies..

So.. The conclusion is if you want to buy anything from Sheer Romance.. Make sure you buy the CORRECT size..

Since i've moved.. I haben been really going out.. No clubbing ever since.. Being home latest at 12.. Argh.. I really feel like im in my secondary school days where my aunt used to take control of me..

My saturday was mostly spent at home.. In the morning.. I went to see my future home which will be completing in September this year with my aunts and uncle.. Thereafter I went to Eastpoint with my aunt.. In the afternoon my cousins came over.. They are not exactly my cousins but we are somewhat indirectly related.. They are my uncle's niece and newphew and their family.. There were i think more than 30 people.. We were celebrating Mothers' Day as well as natasha's bday.. Each family brought some food for BBQ.. At late evening.. I went upstairs and slack my time away at home..

The next morning.. I got up at 9+ and took a bathe.. I watched tv till 11.. Got dressed and took a cab with grandma, bro and uncle to toa payoh.. The whole family was having lunch at Sizzler.. After lunch.. My aunt, uncle and 2 cousins (Marcus and Mervin) went to church.. My bro, Emily (Biao Jie), Alaric (Biao Di) and I went shopping around toa payoh, then to fareast.. At 4+.. We took the train to Tampines.. Shopped around.. Collected the cake and took a cab to Joo Chiat for dinner.. After dinner.. We headed home..

Had seen the doc four times las month.. Every since my attachment started.. I havent been feeling too well.. I took my first MC on the forth day of attachment.. Then that saturday.. I went to see the doc again bcos the damn medicine didnt help.. The third time I saw the doc was bcos of stomach flu and the las time which is on thu was bcos of flu.. Weak immune system.. Probably not used to the routine.. Spent quite abit on consultations and medicine.. Argh.. The latest medication im taking makes my hand tremble and I get sleepy ever now and den when its not suppose to make me sleepy.. My cousin says its too strong for me.. But I insist on finishing the medicine cos I dun wana fall sick soon again.. Just hope I be in the pink of health soonz..

*24 years old
*loves her family, her girlies and the lovely peeps
*attached to beckie's ride
*is absolutely contradicting
*loves travelling and shopping


*more holidays!
*ipod
*shining luck + bling +