9am. i opened my eyes and i was in my cuzie's room. i had slept in her house the day before. i wanted to see what time it was for fear that i be late for driving lesson. so i unlocked my key pad. i saw 3 msgs from my cuzie and she had fwded it to me. my aunt had msged to scold her. she said i was being too much. going home as and when i like. treating her house as a hotel. she asked if i were going to continue doing this every weekend and stuff. im 20 years old not 12 years old. duh~! i was so upset i was tearing while thinking of a solution. i didnt wanted to go for driving but it was too late to cancel.

i msged ken to ask if he was sending me to cdc and he asked where did i went last night. i replied that i wasnt in too good a mood and asked him not to probe so much. and he replied something really mean. i blew my top. i got changed and walked home.

i called *him. (you know, i know) he was really worried and took a cab down to my house. after i hung up the phone. i went to shower. he came shortly later. he accompanied me to cdc and waited till my lesson ended. together. we went bugis. details are too much to be mentioned. he really cheer me up. thanks.

really dread going home to face the music but i knew i had to. he accompanied me to my old house to see my mum. shes finally back from thailand cos she misses me and bro. haha. thereafter i went home. my bro opened the door for me and the moment i stepped into the living room. my aunt was behind me and she gave me a shock. i quickly slipped into my room. took my clothes and showered. i saw her walking in the living room when i was out of the bathroom. usually i would place my towel on the dining table chair but to avoid her. i took the towel into the room. haha. then i quickly went to bed for fear she would come in to give me a lecture.

Work is so boring today. doing database. my eyes can barely open. went to have lunch with ness and friends at expo burger king. at 3+. i received a call. i went downstairs and was presented with a surprise. but its gonna be a secret. i finished work at 4+ cos the new director was here. so we are having a tea break to get to know him better and vice versus. but didnt had anything. went home. had dinner. showered. had a lovely day.

i woke up as usual today. showered and took the elevator down. i suddenly remembered I was in inappropriate dressing cos i wore skirt. so i went home and changed. i wore jeans and a tee with heels. cos all my shoes are at the other home.

after work. ken came to send me home. wanted to change to shoes but i didnt have the house keys with me so we went directly to cdc. was slightly late. instructor told me i could remove my heels. i realise i could control better. slight improvement. engine stalled 4 times. cos he taught me how to u-turn. fun! could get used to it. but the instructor dont let me go beyond 40km/h. hmmph! but still. i enjoyed myself. lesson ended at 8pm.

I went for dinner at old kallang airport. i had frog leg porridge. yum yum! but very spicy so ended up having a stomache. i packed dinn for family. 4 packets of fried kway teow and 1 mee pok and 2 bbq chicken wings for my bro. also bought bird nest drink and newspaper for my younger aunt and uncle. ken packed 5 packets of fried kway teow for his kopitiam. after we bought all the stuff we went to his kopitiam to pass his mum the food. then to buy herbal jelly for me and my family. got home late. i told my aunt i be back by 9.30pm but got home only 45 minutes later.

was really busy at work. didnt rest since morning to 7pm. had sandwich for lunch. a really quick lunch. our big boss actually invited everyone for lunch cos colleagues from china were here. but i had way too much work on hand. took a really short break and gossiped a lil with hazel after lunch. so sad. im leaving discovery in sept. and what she said made me feel worse. i know i will miss all my great colleagues especially hazel. shes cares for me like an elder sister. shes understanding. patient. tolerant. they are always more than willing to teach and help me. but im already glad that i had the opportunity to work together with them.

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woke up at 10am. showered and went home to change my shoes. headed to cdc. had my first driving lesson. managed to drove on the road. the maximum speed i went was 40km/h. 3rd gear. the car stalled for about 5 times. rather fun. but i must have looked damn stone cos have to concentrate 100% on the road. im sure i will get the hold of it after a few more lessons. met ken and he brought me to his coffeeshop cos i needed the toilet. haha. had lunch at geylang. then went to tampines mall. but left soon later cos it was too crowded. he sent me home and went to work.

stayed at home watched tv. blog. went to my old home to collect the big chunck of letters from the letter box. bills again. more than 1/2 of my pay will be gone once it comes in. so sad.

the operating manager cum kopi kia came to fetch me at 10. :X he sent me home to collect my stuff. we went to collect his cd changer den headed to jb. had claypot nice for lunch. nice. we also ordered fried kway teow and soup. total for just rm18.50. thereafter we headed to carrefour. bought lotsa stuff. 2 big plastic containers for his car. anlene for his godmum. bubblegum. chewing gum. sweets. cheezels. oatmeal crackers (being forced to buy). honey bunches of oats cereal. toothbrush. berries yogurt. fruit juice. didnt manage to buy herbal eggs but at least i had my ice cream. i also bought hairband and a hairclip for reys.

our last stop. holiday plaza. he sent his car for washing. then we crossed the road over to holiday plaza. did a lil window shopping. we changed our hp casing. its now the ultimate black. haha. cool. love it. we went back to collect his car. was craving for banana fritters so he went back to holiday plaza and made a round. we managed to find the stall in the guide book we had. we proceeded to the petrol station and back to singapore. he picked weilong and his wife up. then sent me home to change. my bro friends was in my house with the aircon on and lotsa plates of food lying around the table. was fuming mad. i changed and left. mr chen drove us to singapore expo where we met weichen and gf. together we walked towards hall 1 and 2 for the gala dinner and concert. spectacular number of people. 1000 tables and 10000 people. ate a lil. after the dinner. he fetched me to orchard where i met reys and yingxue. queued for 2 hours but didnt managed to go in. instead. we sat at mac donalds and they ate while i drank ice tea. gossipped about people and talked about life. ken came to fetch us home. got home at 10 mins to 3.

had a long long day. so tiring but had fun.

had a terrible day today. had no coins so gotta walk to office. was sweating. i just hate to sweat especially after i just showered. got to office 15mins late. went for lunch with amin, roger and another colleague. thereafter we went to the career fair. was really disappointing. nothing much. got back to office and i couldnt log on my computer. fine. waited for half an hour for ben to come. but at least i got real player and updated version of lotus.

started to wonder about how am i supposed to survived with what im left. how could someone like me survived with 200+bucks for one month? I have exhausted all my resources. and im starting my driving lessons which i cannot postponed cos my test date is in early october. there is just aint enough time. aint enough money. so vexed.

no money equals no security which equals to easily irritated. and the best thing is that i have financial responsibilities at the age of 20. okie. there are many worse off than me. but its just driving me crazy. i have to pay all outstanding bills and im still in debt. just realised how lucky it is to be the younger one in the family. cos my brother is just enjoying himself and its not getting to him at all. hes having fun while i have to worry about every single shit. just hope i'll be able to tide through these without getting into a depression.

Went home rather early yesterday. left the office at 6.20pm. got home at 10mins to 7. was munching away infront of the television. after dinner. i waited patiently for the superstar on channel u. was having diarrhoea throughout the program. went to the toilet like 5 times. after the 9pm show. i took a shower and again. waited for the 11.30pm results. so sad. she didnt got in. shes definitely better than some who got in. as mentioned. its all about who has more friends and is richer. haiz. :(

rather bored. so decided to write something about myself.

i was brought up single-handedly by my mum who is a thai national. she dotes on me and my younger brother alot. so much that we often climbed over her head. i learnt to start treasuring people around me after my dad passed away more than a decade ago. since young, my aunt has been showering us with love but she controls us alot. i havent had many close friends because of her strict control and curfews. so the more i treasure friendships. i can be considered naive cos i always believe people are good in nature. and there is a good side of everyone. i like to think positively but can also be pessimistic when im low.

since my teenage years, i fall in love easily. i never knew the reason. only recently when a good friend of mine who had good analytic skills pointed out the reason. i have been seeking for the love that i have been deprived since my childhood. the love that could make up for all that. how true was that. but i always wonder if the love could be found.

i often feel that im simple minded. but sometimes. i do think too much. i dont fully understand myself so im still in the process of seeking. an example would be. i always thought i was easily contended. indeed i am but not all the time. probably im just waiting for someone to help me find myself.

hazel asked me to put aside the alien planet roadshow contest fulfillment and to do the 6 degrees contest fulfillment. managed to clean up the database with 3000++ entries in few hours. did the mail merge for the letter and mailing label and further clean up the winners' entries. did everything within 3 1/2 hour. i started packing the prizes into envelopes, pasting the labels and sealing up the envelopes. the next thing i knew. it was 6.20pm. if i were to leave everything as it is and continue tomorrow. it would be very messy. moreover i dont like to leave this undone. the aircon supply shutted at 7pm. it was really warm. i managed to finish 3/4 of the packing. i then placed the rest of the prizes which i have placed in envelopes nicely in a box beside my table. i left the office at 8.30pm. took a cab home. the first thing i did when i got home was to turn on the television to watch superstar. had my dinn. showered. finally after a long day at work.

had a normal routine day yesterday. work. home. sleep.

almost the whole marketing department had to go to the store to clear up some stuff today cos people has been complaining that marketing stuff are blocking the pathway and is causing inconvenience. printed the premium list. hazel and i remove all the boxes from level 3 except those for the recent contests fulfillment. i moved the rest to B2 storeroom. this is the first time ever i see so many people together in the store. managed to packed everything nicely. but jus a lil unorganised. was so warm and everyone was sweating.

went to signature to withdraw money den lunch at tampines mall with ken. i bought chocolates for amin and ness and strawberry panda biscuits for hazel and myself. yumyum! my eyes seem to be shutting as i stared at the excel sheet on the computer screen.

met reys, eunice and bf at bishan kfc after work. rushed down and managed to get there at 6.45pm. later eileen, esther and friend came. we waited for ying xue as usual always the last. together we took 2 cabs to mediacorp. we went in and realised that there was a queue. we try to cut queue. at 8.30pm. they let us in. everybody was squeezing and pushing. there was no queue at all. everyone was running and pushing. heard there was some quarrels and people shouting not to push. singaporeans are kiasu and theres no need to squeeze. but the fact is they themselves are also doing the exact same thing. all the contestants' supporters have a specific sitting area. the guys recording was delayed and thus we were all seated at 9+. chanel got the 2nd highest score for the round. yea~ the whole recording ended at 11.30pm. the program is premiering on thursday 8.30pm and the results later at 11.30pm. pray hard that she will get into the next round.

wasnt sensitive enough to handle a simple situation last night. feel so useless. everyone who knows me prolly 1 day would know im blur. sometimes blur to the extent that i can drive people nuts. feel so bad. most of the time. my mind is a second slower than friends.

i thought i wouldnt have any activities on sunday. but end up meeting kaymen, joseph and vincent at 2.30pm at 209 coffeshop. thou kaymen and joseph was playing basketball and i managed to talk to them only when they were having a break. vincent was busy practising his stats while we chatted. after kaymen and joseph went for their second round. vincent and i left and we went to tampines mall.

on the bus. i met juwita. havent seen her for so long. chatted a lil about school and stage arts. we parted at the interchange. just a few steps away. i met spencer. so happy to see him cos ever since wardrobe close down. he seems to vanish into thin air. and i lost his number together with my handphone. i got his number and continued walking to tampines mall. i just passed by the mrt station and i saw gary. not very shocked to see him there. i called him just to say hi. what a day! didnt know everyone's out on sunday cos im usually home slacking.

the moment i stepped into tampines mall. i wished i was at home. just dont like to come out when there are so many people. it was so crowded. wanted to go hagen daz for ice cream but having a sore throat so we went coffee bean instead. we sat there till 6pm when i just couldnt stand sitting any longer. we took the train to cityhall and walked over to suntec. i told reys i will be waiting for her near the espirit area. while vincent and i were waiting. i saw has with her bf. spoke a lil and she left. reys came out at 7.30pm. together. we took the train towards orchard. reys and i alighted at somerset while vincent went to orchard to meet his friend. as usual. we had long john. we just sat there and gossipped about life, people and other stuff. we left long john at 9.30 and headed towards the mrt station. i accompany reys as she waited for ying xue. got home at 10.45pm.

went to comfort driving centre at ubi at 10am to book my pdl. haha. so excited. called my instructor at 9.30 before i left for ubi and he said that he cant get there in time to help me get a number. i told him it was alright. got there. went into the customer service at level 1. they didnt even have an information counter unlike ssdc. didnt know where to go cos everyone there seems to be cdc's students and they had a queue number. wanted to ask the lady at the nearest counter but she was talking to this 2 gals who are interested in learning driving. i took my hp out from my pocket and realised i got 5 missed calls from my instructor. i called him back and he said he had got a queue number for me. i met him at the entrance and he turned out to be different from what i thought. i visualise him to be a mid-forties serious-looking clean shaven thin man with straight hair dressed in white top and black pants. but he turned out to be not very thin with curly hair and a moustache dressed in red and yellow checked shirt. but he doesnt look fierce. he reminds me of my dad which i last saw him 11 years ago with curly hair and moustache. the only thing is that my dad was thinner. he passed me the number and asked me to go upstairs. he added that i need to open an account at counter 9 level 1. didnt waited as long as i thought. got my pdl. went downstairs opened an account and passed the pdl to my instructor.

then mr petty and me went to geylang to have dim sum. den to bugis to watch intial D. yes. for the second time im watching. after we bought the tickets for the 1.15pm show. we went chinatown cos i wanted to get a straw bag for my cuzzie. we left chinatown at 1.05pm. which means we will probably missed the front part. to make things worse. there was a jam due to the ndp again. getting rather frustrated cos its creating lotsa inconvenience for many people. we got to the cinema at 1.45pm. was yawning quite abit in the cinema. after the show. we went to buy my favourite -ice cream. headed to ikea and bought the boxes to put in his boot to placed his stuff and a jar for my sweets. haha. went to liang seah street to have dinner. he sent me to my old home to get my stuff then back to my home. was rather shocked no one is at home. which means i can use the com. its usually occupied during the weekends cos of my 2 younger cuzzies. my aunt doesnt allow them to play during weekdays. wanted to go clubbing but very tired and im having 2 terrible ulcers plus sore throat. decided to stay at home to watch tv.

l left the office at 5.15pm yesterday. go to work late and left early. haha. but all with permission. im not exactly off work when i say i left the office. cos i had to go to peoples park to do some work. i took a cab to peoples park complex and arrived at 6. went to the address indicated but couldnt find it. i called the company and was told that they had actually shifted to B1. i called my buddy sky on the way to the complex. was rather unfamiliar with the area and therefore not very comfortable. i heard the background sound from his side. he was on the train and the next stop happened to be outram. i asked if he wanted to meet and he agreed without hesitation. he came to the place where i was doing my stuff to meet me. thereafter we went to shop around for one of his girl friend's birthday pressie.

the only gift that came to my mind at chinatown was bags. called lydia to ask her where was the shop. managed to find the shop and got her a bag in biege colour. i accompanied him to the mrt station. i flagged a cab from the main road. the cab driver asked me where i was going and i said simei. he nodded his head. so i board the cab. after he turned in to simei.

cabby: simei st what?
me: simei st 1. melville park.
cabby: huh? condo ar?
me: (being courteous)yar. sorry uncle. you changing shift huh? so sorry.
cabby:*tsk* is it very far? inside inside?
me: at the condo lo.
cabby: *tsk* no i mean is it very far into the condo?
me: ok la. one straight road.
cabby: very far ar?
(he turned into melville park)
me: uncle turn left.
cabby: eh. you faster hor.
me: (duh~ im not the one driving)
cabby: you prepare the money.
me: uncle. i only got fifty dollars.
cabby: huh? aiyo! got smaller note anot? i only got 2. aiyo! how? if i know. i shouldnt have picked you up.
cabby: in front somemore ar?
me: yar. (searching for smaller notes although i know i dont have. like i know i dont have small change. moreover its in the evening lo. he should have the change.)
cabby: have anot?
me: dont have
cabby: really dont have?
me: uncle. i only got one fifty dollar note
(reach my block)
me: uncle. you got change anot? if dont have. i call my family members come down.
(call home and cousin picked up. my cousin sending the money down)
cabby: (counting his small notes) ah. 35 in total. (all 2 dollars and one 5 dollar note) can anot?
me: can can.
cabby: need receipt?
me: yes
cabby: you count
me: no need
cabby: cannot. you must count
me: its ok uncle
cabby: sorry ar.

SHA1467U

i walked home so frustrated. trying to be nice and courteous but people bully me. like duh~ lo. no time dont need to pick me up. its not the only cab in singapore. had my dinn. watch 'you fu' last episode. showered and slept early. rather tired.

last night. i was watching previous episodes of 'ah fu' which i missed. and at the same studying for my advanced theory test during commercial intervals. by the time i was done watching all the previous episodes. it was 12.30am. i knew i was dead cos i havent really memorized anything. like i mentioned. i merely read through the book once but i did understand and dissolved all the stuff. i was having terrible stomache on and off while watching the show. couldnt switch on the fan cos the pain gets worse when its cold. by the time i went to shower the pain had become so bad i couldnt stand properly. i popped 2 antacid pills. lying on the bed. i held up the book still trying hard to study but it was too unbearable. so i went to sleep.

i woke up at 7.15am this morning. got ready and left home. i arrived ssdc late cos i need to get my ic from reyers. was still doing some last minute studying on the way to ssdc. when i walking up level 3. i was thinking about the possibility of me passing the test. 20%. Ha. I stepped in and showed the lady my IC. she showed me to my seat. all theory tests are now conducted on touch screen computers. first i had to enter my password. i touch the numbers on the screen but nothing seems to happen. then the lady tapped on the numbers and the numbers did appear. i tried to tap again but nothing happen. i was already embarrassed for being late and this damn touch screen is so insensitive. i tapped harder and finally. i finished the all 50 questions in 30 mins. i clicked on end test when i was done and i was shocked to see that i passed! i took my stuff and went out of the room still feeling unbelievable. i must have been very lucky. i left ssdc smiling and feeling excited. yeah~! i can go get my pdl and start learning driving. beware of dangerous driver on course. please give way! haha.

im screwed! argh. why am i so blur? i forgot to send out some stuff that i was supposed to on the 29 june. and they need the stuff for an event tomorrow. god~ im dead. so so dead. i feel like killing myself. i feel so bad. i think i gotta start joting down every single thing that i have to do so i wouldnt forget. useless brain. please. i hope the same thing wouldnt happen again. i made lotsa mistakes since i step into discovery. i bet i created a bad impression for myself.

during lunch. i was wrecking my brain to think of what to get for her. didnt had time to shop cos there's a discovery health screening. so i decided to get after work. mr chen came to fetch me to tm. i got a precious moment cushion for her to hug. a flower. more to the stuff toy kinda flower. was intending to get a sunflower which symbolizes her sunshineness but someone was laughing away when i asked for opinion. i also bought her a lolly which we used to have during our secondary school days and lastly a tag with her name. i figured out that she could hang it on her luggage for recognition purpose. i got to the airport at 7.40pm. was surprised at the number of people who came to see her off. her family. uncles. aunties. cuzzies. campmates. union friends. hospitality friends. there were more than 30 people there. didnt quite had the chance to talk to her. she was so so busy taking pictures and chatting with some of her friends. i think we didnt even exchange more than 10 sentences. well. i finally had the chance to tell her that i had to go first. at least i didnt had to witness the awkward situation of her entering the departure gate. im sure she will be able to cope and adjust to the environment. thou im sad but with the advanced technology. shes just a click away. after i left the airport. mr chen drove me to old kallang airport to had dinner then to bedok to pack supper for my family. they were grumbling by the time i got home at 10.45pm. i shared dessert with my bro. showered and slept at 12am. my ulcer is killing me. cant even brush my teeth properly. cant talk properly. cant eat properly. hope its gonna get well soon. *sobs*

im having my final theory test tomorrow. havent really memorized. merely read through once. gotta really start studying tonight. i dont wana wait another 2 months. once i passed. i'll start learning driving. yeah~ wish me luck!

Beckham was at NYP yesterday. yes. David Beckham. reyers is now all so upset cos she was on mc yesterday. her classmates even took pictures of him which make her even more upset. she is still grieving over not being able to see him in person. many of my other classmates in my batch were also rather disappoited. but i was more puzzled what was he doing at my school than sad for not being able to see him. happening huh? which is why i always say NYP is the most happening poly. got concerts. roadshows. events blah blah blah.

i left office at 6pm. was really lucky the shuttle bus was here when i went down. i reached the expo mrt station at 6.15pm. waited a few minutes before the train came. my ipod died on me. by the time i arrived at somerset. it was 6.45pm. i walked briskly upstairs and met reyers. together we walked to nydc to meet cryst who was already there. we sat for quite some time. left nydc at around 8.30pm. was intending to get my bikini from buttcheeks but it wasnt as nice as i thought so i ended not buying it. one item off my wishlist.

we accompanied cryst to paragon to pass some stuff to her friend then we headed to alley bar. yeah~! had been wanting to go there so so long. finally i could have my strawberry margarita and the addictive chips. we chatted about lotsa stuff although i cannot really remember and reys and i signed an insurance policy with her. seems like a really good policy. i admire her for knowing her direction in life. she is always so firm and sure of her goals although she may change her pathway in life. im sure she would be really successful in future. we left alley bar at 10.20pm. i took a cab home while they took the train. was supposed to have dinner at home but i forgot to call home at noon to inform granny. i called her at 4pm and told her i b back later to eat. i was so full from the dinner at NYDC and the chips. felt so drowsy in the cab. i got home hoping granny didnt leave any food for me. there aint much food left on the dining table and i wasnt sure if she did leave any. so i just pretended that i dont know anything. i showered and fell asleep soon. it is always nice meeting up old friends catching up with life and stuff.

I woke up at 9.30am yesterday. took a bathe. by the time i left home. it was 10.30am. which means i was already late. i took a cab to tampines mall. grace was on the way walking over when i arrived. grace, lyd and bf and me had breakfast at mac donalds. yea. mac donalds again. no choice. i left for work at 11.45am.

I thought the entries forms would be in but i thought wrong. and hazel hasnt gave me a confirmation on the lance armstrong contest winners. so i spent my entire day surfing the net and blogging. a waste of time. if i had knew the stuff wouldnt be sent yesterday. i wouldnt have came to work. i left office at 6.08pm. one of the earliest.

got home really early. grandma was watching television so i went to surf the net. damn friendster. dont know whats wrong. cant seem to add friends. aunt, uncle, marcus and mervin came back 5 mins before 7pm. the rest of the day was spent in front of the television.

this morning. i woke up at 8am. and i left home minutes before 9am. got to the office 12 minutes late. boring bored. gonna meet cryst and reyers after work. havent met up with cryst since we graduated. when reyers asked me last night. i agreed to meet them without hesitation. still waiting for the entries to come in. waiting...

i saw pee yong's msn nick and i entered the link which was the superstar website. was really upset when i saw people critising chanel. wanted to ask these people to get a life and not comment on someone until they really know her. if they are really that great. then join the competition. Cheers to all the contestants who have the courage to take the first step that many do not have. then i went to the other contestant's forum. i realised that everyone has their fair number of supporters as well as anti-supporters. well. i guess its life. no matter how perfect someone can be. there will still be people who dislike that particular someone probably because due to jealousy or misunderstanding.

i guess popularity plays a very big role in life and some people are just borned with it. dont understand why some people can be so so mean as to criticise other's parents. its rude. no matter how much one detest someone. it's still not right to criticise people's parents. and its also not right to detest people for their apperance cos everyone are borned different. some are borned with beautiful faces whereas some are not as lucky. but its understandable for someone to detest another. probably there's really a problem with the person's character. or friends felt injustice for their friends. cos i myself simply hate to hear criticism about my friends or injustice that my friend has gone through. if only everyone can be nice. this world would be in so much peace and everyone would be happier. probably that sounds naive. but the bottom line is that. i salute to all the contestants for being able to take the tremendously huge pressure and all the criticisms and not forgetting teh artists. i didnt understand why people especially artists always say that its very stressful being in the TV industry but now i do. nonetheless. im sure chanel is handling the criticism very well. and thanks for all the criticism cos im sure all these criticism will help her in becoming a stronger and better person.

finally the 1st day of the roadshow. i woke up at 7.30am. showered and went to ascentmedia to collect the DVDs. after which i went to plaza singapura. i alighted at the 7 eleven and bought a M1 hi card. i walked briskly to the front plaza where the alien planet roadshow was located. hazel and penny was already there with the people from senses and a few temps. being a lil paranoid. i quickly checked the premiums which the courier had sent over to make sure nothing is missed out. unfortunately the memo boards were not delivered and JC stuff hasnt arrived. so i called harry and JC. lucky enough. harry was coming down in the afternoon and the memo boards happened to be in his office.

matthew gave a briefing to all the staff and everyone introduced themselves. and as expected i couldnt remember anyone's name except jooe cos she was the first person and skye. my partner for the GTK booth. halfway during the briefing. JC came. 2 guys (who i later remembered their names. keong and andrew) went to collect the stuff. matthew dedicated everyone to their booths. hazel and i explain the different premiums to the 2 guys. keong and andrew who were in charge of the store and stage activities. thereafter carl gave syke, me and two other gals briefing about the GTK booth. the first day response wasnt very good. i wasnt really at my booth. :X i helped out with the redemption counter where jasmine was tending alone. later. hazel asked me to go lunch with jasmine. was rather bored so i started chatting with her. we went for lunch at 2 at the foodcourt. for the rest of the day. we were chatting. haha. dennis, harry, mag, kevin and marcia came down at some point in time and left. there is this idiotic guy who kept calling me ah lian. just the thing i hated people to call me. but showing that i was irritated would only make him irritate me more so i didnt bother. at 7.30pm. everything was packed up. jas accompanied me as i waited for ken to come. we had dinner then went to east coast to meet up juan and jeff. at 10.45. he sent me home. got home exhausted. shower and slept almost immediately.

the second day. i got up at 7.30am. and as usual. my daily routines. i got to plaza singapura at 9.30am. had breakfast at mac donalds. simply felt weak. at 10am. i saw keong and andrew. they were also having breakfast at mac donalds. i joined them for a while. jas came at 10.30 and hazel came shortly later. we helped set up the booths. that day. jasmine and i tended the crime booth. the response was a little better than the first day. we didnt had lunch until 4pm. jas must be starving. my cuzzie. emily came down with jeff. was supposed to accompany her to manicure but was more interested in watching a lot like love. she was rather disappointed. by the time it was almost ending. everyone starting taking pictures with the remaining polaroid films. everyone collected their pay. andrew, keong, jas and I went to cathay to check out the shows available cos the last show at plaza sing was 7.30. we managed to get tickets for the 8.30 show. by the time we entered the cinema. the show already started. no comments about the show. but i love shows with good endings though. after the show. we headed to the mrt station and i took the train home. i realised its been so so long since i took the train. haha. got home at 11.30pm. took a shower and slept at 12+.

to conclude the 2 days of roadshow. it was rather fun. a good exposure. made friends. many interesting, fun and nice people. but the saddest thing was that everyone kept asking if my tattoo was fake. so sad. and i had to say that it was really tiring. much more tiring than working in the office. and everyone would be all sweaty and sticky since afternoon. but i guess we are all happy at the end of the day.

everyone enjoys being in the comfort zone and many are not willing to move out of it. what does it really mean by comfort zone? i would define it as a moment or place. basically your life. world where you feel so comfortable you wouldnt want anything to change. people who are not willing to move out of it are usually rather dependent. just like me. haha. not like its a great thing. but i guess im currently in a comfort zone where i have a rather good job. people who cares for me. and great family. just missing the times where im out with my friends and the freedon i once had.

these comfort zone changes at some point in times. for me. it has changed at least thrice this year. first was being in the comfort zone of happily attached and giving all that i could. it was crushed when things turned out really bad. then i got used to it and the second. which was happily being single with the great company of friends who made me feel that i can be as happy being single. those were really the most memorable days. and it also ended when i started work and moved into my new home. currently im happy with my job and having people who really cares for me. i wonder when will this comfort zone change again? probably for some. it hasnt changed for a long long time. i guess it has its benefits and disadvantages. but its up to one to debate.

woke up this morning at 7.35. took a bathe and prepared to go to work. i left home at 8.20am. walked to the bus stop slowly. minutes later. ken came. yeah~ dont have to wait for long. he got me my latte and sandwich. i arrived in office at 8.50 and as usual. surf the net. hazel came to ask me if i had send the tape to chris and i told her i had. then i realised blurry dumb me forgot to attention. so how the hell the people at ascentmedia would know its for chris. chris couldnt find the tape. i thought i was doomed. i was late for marketing meeting so i quickly went for the meeting after dropping chris an email. alas. i could understand slightly what kevin was talking about. i used to doze off in meetings because i couldnt understand his accent. after the meeting. hazel told me the tape has been found. thank god. right after meeting. i took a cab to ascentmedia to send a tape to chris. thereafter i took a cab to bali thai to meet up with my colleagues. we were having a birthday bash for kevin. wasnt as bad as i thought. it turned out pretty well. we had cookies and creams ice cream cake after lunch. i hitched a ride in kevin's car back to the office. nice metallic green peugeot car. the hours after lunch was really busy. sending premiums to the roadshow site. sending stuff to regional office.

now. im taking a breather. at 5.15 got to rush down to ascentmedia again. im so happy that im meeting reyers after work today. havent met her for a long long time. really miss all the times when we were out together. sleeping over at her place and chanel's hostel. chilling. movies. slacking. KTV and not forgetting clubbing at least once every week. i havent been going clubbing for like more than a month. next week will be it. i dont want to bother even if aunt gets angry cos im already trying very hard and i need a break. give me a break! its such a goodie goodie day today. *big smile*

i got home at 7+ yesterday. had my dinner and glued myself in front of the television. waiting for the 8.30pm superstar. i had already planned and deliberately stayed home although i have been at the studio when they did the recording. after the show ended. i watched the drama series on channel 8. took a shower. when i was done. i quickly went into my uncle's room and switched to channel U. i asked my bro who was in the room what time was it and the time showed 11.08pm. guess i was too anxious. the 20 minutes seems eternity. any other day. i would be lying in bed already. finally the news at 10.30 ended. yeah~! first was the sneak preview of all the 12 contestants performance and grades from the judges. then 3 guys are called on stage and 1 will be kicked out. the pictures of the contestants switched and switched. the concept is like the jackpot. there are 3 boxes. the person's whose photo appears in all three boxes will be kicked out. the first contestant kicked out was M2 raymond. so mean. so cruel. so saddening. many people at the studio and the contestants cried. following up is the gals. same procedures. 3 gals were called on stage and F4 i think was kicked out. i think she has got this unique look. so sad. the third round. yea. the guys again. the results surprised everyone. he has got the highest score and he has this confident attitude that i think is rather cool. lastly. the most anxious moment. i sat as close as i could to the television. i was sweating but i didnt bother that i felt warm. i clenched my hands together. hoping. and yeah~!!! she got in! all for that. my heart was still beating fast. i couldnt get to sleep. i managed to get some sleep only after the anxiousness in me cease. haha. so so happy!

*24 years old
*loves her family, her girlies and the lovely peeps
*attached to beckie's ride
*is absolutely contradicting
*loves travelling and shopping


*more holidays!
*ipod
*shining luck + bling +