rather bored. so decided to write something about myself.
i was brought up single-handedly by my mum who is a thai national. she dotes on me and my younger brother alot. so much that we often climbed over her head. i learnt to start treasuring people around me after my dad passed away more than a decade ago. since young, my aunt has been showering us with love but she controls us alot. i havent had many close friends because of her strict control and curfews. so the more i treasure friendships. i can be considered naive cos i always believe people are good in nature. and there is a good side of everyone. i like to think positively but can also be pessimistic when im low.
since my teenage years, i fall in love easily. i never knew the reason. only recently when a good friend of mine who had good analytic skills pointed out the reason. i have been seeking for the love that i have been deprived since my childhood. the love that could make up for all that. how true was that. but i always wonder if the love could be found.
i often feel that im simple minded. but sometimes. i do think too much. i dont fully understand myself so im still in the process of seeking. an example would be. i always thought i was easily contended. indeed i am but not all the time. probably im just waiting for someone to help me find myself.
