had a terrible day today. had no coins so gotta walk to office. was sweating. i just hate to sweat especially after i just showered. got to office 15mins late. went for lunch with amin, roger and another colleague. thereafter we went to the career fair. was really disappointing. nothing much. got back to office and i couldnt log on my computer. fine. waited for half an hour for ben to come. but at least i got real player and updated version of lotus.
started to wonder about how am i supposed to survived with what im left. how could someone like me survived with 200+bucks for one month? I have exhausted all my resources. and im starting my driving lessons which i cannot postponed cos my test date is in early october. there is just aint enough time. aint enough money. so vexed.
no money equals no security which equals to easily irritated. and the best thing is that i have financial responsibilities at the age of 20. okie. there are many worse off than me. but its just driving me crazy. i have to pay all outstanding bills and im still in debt. just realised how lucky it is to be the younger one in the family. cos my brother is just enjoying himself and its not getting to him at all. hes having fun while i have to worry about every single shit. just hope i'll be able to tide through these without getting into a depression.
