Wednesday, August 24, 2005 at 10:43 AM
disappointed beyond words -shattered-
I hesitated before putting this entry down. But being someone who cant hide everything like nothing happen. I had to put it down.I feel freaking freaking dumb. someone who is honest might not be that honest with everything afterall. and to think that i have always been honest in every single thing. my thoughts. my actions. my everything. and the person who aint that honest about everything had to be someone i never thought it would be. i put all my trust and effort and this is what i get in return. not lying but do you have to wait till i asked before you explain the whole freaking matter to me. deliberately hiding is definitely not being honest.it is just so shallow. you can simply tell anyone about your problems and worse of all. about us. why cant you be honest like i have always been and just tell me. and you probably told that person i dislike her. but its fine. blame it on me being dumb. being naive. but i will still stand up for friends who i care for. i dont mind if people thinks im dumb cos thats me and i know i live up to my conscience. to add on. that person happened to think that things between us would end or would change and not be the way that it is now.whats a friendship or relationship without trust? without honesty? its only the beginning and i dont see those factors in it. instead i see problems. doubts and lies hiding beneath it. i dont ask for a reason or explanation. i will learn to defend myself. to protect myself. its just all lies! simply disappointed. fading into the distance...
loves
