Tuesday, August 30, 2005 at 11:06 PM
painful experiences
i was blogging and came across one of my friend's blog. at the same time im reminded of someone who had recently fell out of love. love can really bring as much unhappiness as it brings happiness. its sad that many things dont work out the way we want them to. often. people have to be selfish to follow their heart. sometimes being a lil crude.
when you are the one being hurt. you are devastated. wonder if he thought of you or still care for you. feelings are still strong. the stronger it is. the more painful it is. all you could think of for the next couple of days or even weeks and months would be memories of you and him. hunger could not be felt. all that is left is a body without a soul. some would try to bring back the relationship. some would cooped for a few days before standing up. and there are also others who isolate themselves and it can go on for weeks and months.
on the other side. being the one who ends it all. there are two kinds of people.
1. sadness there will be. prob not for everyone but at least for me. guilt would find me. i would always try to convey the message the least painful way possible. i would always feel sorry cos i could perfectly understand how it feels like. but love is just so. whats the point of making 2 person suffer when you know it wont work.
2. cold blooded people who probably dont give a damn to your well-being. you can die and thats your problem. she can enjoy herself. eat and sleep as usual. have all the fun in the world. whats the point of being sad for someone all so not worth it. there are still people who cares. people who feels sad and worried to see you in such a state. get hold of yourself and carry on with life. someday you will recover and i always believe there is someone waiting for you in some part of the world. be patient and you will find the right girl. dont give up cos when you do. you will never find love.
i will always be there if you need a listening ear or if you need to talk. *smile* looking forward to see you stand up.
loves
