Monday, November 14, 2005 at 11:44 PM
insecure
sobs sobs. starting to regret that i bought so much stuff on sunday. i know im at fault. too late for regrets now. so the consequences would be limiting my daily expenditure. shall really start to scrimp and save. no more extra income from this month all thanks to some arsehole. but i've got backbone. i shall prove it to him that i'm capable. i will get back at him when i have the chance to. play me out? try harder. hes just full of excuses and crap. liar! *take a deep breathe* thinking about that just makes my blood boil. reys and ying xue are going to hongkong in exactly 18 days. couldnt join them cos im broke. so sad. i bet it will be so fun. no holidays for becks. no thailand trip. no hong kong trip. not even malaysia trip till i learn to save.feeling so shitty now. shitty about my life. everything is just so sucky. but i guess thats just life. lets just pray that everything will get better soon.something that would bring up my spirit . . . grace will be back in 10 days~!!! yay! as for now. i just pray that she will be able to clear her exams with flying colours.
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