Friday, February 03, 2006 at 11:28 PM
my cuzy
feeling upset..i have a lovely cuzy who is 2 years older than i am. since young, she had always keep a lookout for me, be it in school or home. i can still remember the times when we used to have so much fun. we played all sorts of stuff like guessing games, water ration, barbie dolls..sometimes, i love and dote on her more than myself. she used to like the fried rice that my mum made and each time, i would packed the fried rice nicely in a container and bring it to her house for her irregardless if my mum cooked enough.i have always look up to her, she has always been my role model. i respect her and im proud of her.as time goes by, we grew up and had our own friends. communication got lesser and the distance got further. she always treated her friends better than her family members which used to upset me..now, we have all grown up. we have our own perceptions and arguments are just unavoidable. its sad that we have rather different thinking. at home, shes like the queen. she wants everything to go her way and she must get what she wants. i miss the understanding cuzy who gives in to me when im feeling lousy. i know we can never be like how we were 10 years back.i hate to see her being bullied. i just want her to be happy.. always.. nothing matters as long as shes sincerely happy.i cant help but to add on that i dislike her boyfriend. just cant hide it cos i feel that hes mean and rowdy. i will never look down on someone the way he does. if thats a joke? thats too much for a joke. theres so many ways to phrase a sentence and the way he phrased it..? definitely offensive! he has won cos my cuzy sided him. that really hurt me so so much, much more than my cuzy would know.im affected although i agree to what my aunt said. i shall start to master the skill of selective listening!
loves
