Friday, March 31, 2006 at 3:05 PM
bluey friday
feeling so blue. things are just not right..1. keong left me alone for lunch.. :(2. i worked for a marketing promotion the weekend before new year and guess what? till now, i have yet to receive my pay. if you cant do it, dont give empty promises. so mad~! if anyone was waiting for the pay to survive, he/she would have died of hunger long ago. -_-3. the airfare that i manage to get the other time is no longer available. is it fated?4. i supposed the weekend job is cancelled cos no news from the agency which means we wont have enough money for the trip
loves
Thursday, March 30, 2006 at 5:46 PM
competitiveness
i wonder why are some people so competitive? in another words, people who feel jealous when friends around them are having a good life and subsequently, they feel good when they are having a hard time? i dont understand why is that so. cos for me, i'll feel happy if i know my friends are doing well and i'll feel sad if they are down. but obviously, i dont ask cos they might not be willing to say anything. nor do i tell them i feel happy cos they would prob think that im fake. however, i'll feel happy the entire day. prob im just weird. hehehave a great evening~!
loves
5:30 PM
weekdays
my weekdays had been pretty boring.. work, work, work.. after work, go home, have dinner, watch television, shower and sleep.on monday, 3 interns from ngee ann poly started their first day. one of them happened to be sitting beside me. he seems like a lil over-confident guy and a lil nosy. i dont know if hes always looking at my screen or looking elsewhere. but anyway hes not beside me now.yesterday, we celebrated my big boss' promotion over lunch at hyatt. straits kitchen serves singapore cuisine. They offer a wide variety of food, from chinese to malay to indian, the food are yummilicious. i bet grace will love it. shall go together when shes back, provided we are feeling rich. i just checked the pricing on internet. Lunch on weekdays is S$27+++ and weekends is S$35+++. Dinner on weekdays and weekends is S$34+++.im so glad i had keong to bring me for lunches, at least i dont feel so moody being cooped in the office the entire day.
loves
Monday, March 27, 2006 at 2:29 PM
mahjong
i waited at home till keong came by after work. we had lunch before heading to tampines to get paint. it has been a long time since i last walked that stretch of shops cos i didnt realised that the shop has closed down.we went to eastpoint and managed to get the paint from one of those D-I-Y shop. went home and started painting immediately. being first timers, we didnt do a great job. we ran out of paint so we kept adding thinner to the pathetic amount of paint left in the can.once we were done, we quickly packed up and head towards gamy's place. ying xue and reys were already waiting for us.we played 32 rounds non-stop. during the second last game, i started having a terrible headache. right after, i lied down on the sofa. the pain persisted for awhile and keong had to bring me to see a doctor. the freaking consultation and medicine costs 80++.was feeling giddy so i couldnt travel far. i had to rest over at keong's place.sunday afternoon, after we showered, he sent me home. aunt jen wasnt too happy and she didnt quite believe me. we spent our evening having dinner and watching television.what a weekend spent~!
loves
Friday, March 24, 2006 at 9:46 AM
happy birthday~!!!
its aunt cat's birthday today~! yay! im so happy.last night, aunt cat, ronald, keong and i had to make a trip back home. we got there around midnight and left at 2+. aunt jen was just scolding (in a less harsh tone) me, saying why do we always have so much trouble on this day. last year, it was my bro. but im so glad hes so much better now. all the credits goes to my aunt cat!yesterday, after work, i got home to see a postcard on my bed. the handwritting on the postcard looks so familiar, immediately, i knew who was it from. despite the weariness, it brought a wide smile to my face instantly. thank you bestie~!today is going be a good day cos im gay! lalala...this evening, keong and i are going to collect the cake and hopefully, give her a surprise. i love surprises~! im expecting her to be at home when the flowers are delivered.have a lovely day everyone~! =D
loves
Thursday, March 23, 2006 at 3:52 PM
rude drivers
theres so many freaking rude drivers on the street. for each travel, there will be at least 2 rude incidents. i can understand why lyd have to curse to keep her cool.this afternoon, we were on the way back to my office when this freaking nerd cut 2 lanes into the lane we are travelling at. we were so close to kissing his arse. although we were behind him but given the distance, he didnt allow us to stop or reduce our speed in time. to make things worse, he stared at us like he's right and we are wrong. if he wanted to turn into the exit then he should have stayed on the left lane, isn't that common sense? idiot~! and if im not wrong, its said that drivers cannot change lane abruptly and you can only change one lane at a time. okie.. its prob acceptable if there aint any vehicles on the road (cos no one knows) but there is. argh!
loves
2:50 PM
great marketing event
we had an event last evening and it was the most successful event i ever knew. the turnout was just great~! i thought the venue was really nice and thank God it didnt rain. (my manager was totally freaking out) and the best part was, i had keong to accompany me. apparently, he was invited by some staff from the hotel.we tried the food, which was picked out by my supervisor from the 13 episode's scripts that i had to go through. the dessert and soup was so yummy. we had red wine to go along with the yummy food.keong and i went to get supper for my family but all of them were already closed when we got there. although he was very tired, he insisted on sending me home. thank you darl~!
loves
Wednesday, March 22, 2006 at 12:40 PM
different person overnight
its scary how people can change overnight..i know i shouldnt be bothered by those who doesnt give a damn but i cant help it. i didnt do anything and definitely dont deserve to be treated that way..she doesnt appreciates and why should i care? its not worth it..!temperamental.. tsk tsk!
loves
Sunday, March 19, 2006 at 11:48 PM
shopping day
i woke up at 10+ and lazed around in bed. i finally got up from bed when there was nothing interesting on television. took a quick shower and rushed to the interchange. met up with keong.we had breakfast while waiting for my aunt.my aunt, keong and i went to parkway. my aunt thought there was a hang ten branch in parkway but we couldnt find it on the directory board. before we went for lunch, i suggested to go charles and keith. couldnt find my black heels. :( its all eml's fault. she must have brought it to her office and left it there cos i couldnt find it this morning. i looked through all the black heels they had and found one which i thought was quite nice. besides the black heels, i also bought a small black handbag.thereafter, we went to the food court for steamboat. one of my aunt's favourite place. how can you enjoy steamboat without air con?we went to look for the storage store which i saw on the magazine the other day. managed to find the store but the item that i wanted to get was out of stock.with that, we left parkway and took a cab to toa payoh. i bought 2 three-quarts and 2 spag top. keong bought a pair of shoe and a top. my aunt also bought the same pair of shoe for ronald.we took a cab home. had fried rice and soup for dinner. keong and i made a trip to eastpoint to help my aunt return her dvds. at the same time, i bought dessert.keong left soon after cos the weather wasnt too good. after he got home, we had our 2nd debate session. =p
loves
Saturday, March 18, 2006 at 11:24 PM
great saturday~!
keong and i went for breakfast at jalan kayu. had pratas and roti john. the weather was really a killer. thank god i wasnt wearing black.after a filling breakfast, keong sent me to orchard. we wanted to park at the car park opposite cineleisure but we cant seem to get there. so near yet so far. we made like 3 to 4 rounds but to no avail. in the end, we went to the car park at somerset mrt.i met up with reys. we went to NYDC and spent our afternoon chatting over lemon and rasberry shiver. its really nice to meet up, i felt really good. did some catching up and updates. miss the times when we used to have so much time to hang out.i received a call from my aunt to buy dinner for the family. :\at 5+, keong and i left to fulfill the mission as instructed by my aunt. we went to bedok south, bought fried kuey tiao, cuttle fish with kang kong and rojak. the queue for the cuttlefish kang kong was so freaking long, we queued for like 20 - 30mins.with all the food, we headed home. it was too late for movie by the time we finished our dinner. :( we spent the evening watching television. i was so tired, i fell asleep.
loves
Friday, March 17, 2006 at 11:06 PM
my 2nd interview
i was still rushing for a dub at 6pm. why is there always last minute work when i have something on? managed to finish it by 6.20pm, rushed back to my desk to print out my resume. my mind was so preoccupied, i forgot to grab my resume on my way out. i had to waste another 10 minutes to make my way back.i got to bugis at 7.10pm, went to change into formal clothing before i headed to the office building. waited around 5 mins before the interviewer came down. she was a middle-aged cheery lady with short hair. the supposingly short 1/2 hour interview lasted till 9pm.poor keong had been waiting for me all the while..i thought we could do some window shopping cos we havent been to bugis in a long time. but i didnt expect the interview to last so long. we went to V8 for our late dinner. there was this "bengish" service staff who was apparently very unhappy with our visit. their restaurant's last order was at 9.30pm and it was only around 9.05pm when we went in. its people like these who bring down the service level of singapore. how sad and pathetic~!anyway, the restaurant was still crowded with quite a number of people when we left. was in not too bad a mood so i couldnt be bothered with the "bengish" attitude.
loves
10:59 AM
cheery lunches
keong sent me to my office and waited at the lobby till lunchtime for 3 consecutive days, including today.wednesday. we had fondue for lunch. kind of disappointing cos the chocolate was so chunky and way too thick. we found out that they had change to cocoa butter recently cos many complained that the chocolate was too thin. keong and i preferred the previous one though. we were like eating chocolate fudge.thursday. it seems like he wanted to go to the food fair so much so i obliged. we walked up and down the corridor to the exhibition halls but we didnt see the food fair. instead, there was some halal food fair. puzzled, we decided to give up. keong was so hungry, he had to get food somewhere around the area. we settled for lerk thai. had rice, kai lan, minced chicken with basil leaves, green curry and tom yam soup. the tapioca had to be the best i've eaten. yums~!that evening after dinner, we were watching television when we came upon the food fair's advertisement. that was when we realised he got the wrong place. its supposed to be suntec city level 4. haha.
loves
Tuesday, March 14, 2006 at 4:25 PM
just ranting.. ..
im so bored.. i have been reading scripts after scripts. done with 7 and have like 6 more to go. each script is like 20+ to 30+ pages. its driving me nuts, im having a headache and my brain is dead.
loves
Monday, March 13, 2006 at 1:51 PM
homey home
been a homegirl during the weekends. slept over at my 1st aunt's place which is just few steps away cos my 2nd aunt, uncle, cuzies and granny had gone to muar to attend a wedding. i spent my nights lying comfortably in bed in front of the television, watching movies after movies on cable television.when granny is not around, we'll eat out. which means we'll have yummy food. had teochew porridge at oasis on saturday evening. yesterday, we had dinner at joo chiat. i was so hungry, i practically gobbled my food.i spent my afternoons doing housework. i washed, hung and folded the clothes, sweeped and mopped the floor and i packed eml's and my wardrobe. its so neat now. =) can you believe it? well, i cant. the rest of the time, i watched dvds - pride and prejudice, in her shoeswanted to meet up with friends but i have to go for dinn with aunts.. :(yep! that was my boring weekend. boo..
loves
Friday, March 10, 2006 at 11:52 PM
keong's make-up celebration
today is DNA's day. being a temp, i was given a day off.so.. as promised, i made up to keong for his birthday.he picked me up as usual, we went to choa chu kang. had breakfast at ya kun before going to kbox. the package available was k lunch, 9+++ for each person. we spent 3 hours singing and the bill totaled up to 22+ for two pax, cheaper than i expected.while waiting for the sakae sushi's tea hours, we walked around. saw a big crowd at the ground floor, walked up and realised it was the superhosts. we took a detour and went to the library.we went for our lunch at 3+, left the place at around 4+.next up was marina south. i thought we need to move around a lil cos we still have dinn waiting at home. played some banging games, car racing and shooting games. wanted to go bowl cos we missed it during the stay at the chalet. but they were having a league which would end only at 9+.disappointed, we left and headed home.keong: i hoped you enjoyed the day although its kinda last minute. i made the best out of the worst. =)
loves
Tuesday, March 07, 2006 at 11:12 PM
family's in trouble
i took a short nap after the midnight mahjong session. woke up to see nothing done, i started packing. angela, mei de, keong and i spent less than an hour to pack up. after the packing, we sat in the room, started talking and laughing till it was time to check out.keong followed my cab to savannah and mei de followed angela's cab to my mum's place. after keong and i moved all the stuff, we went to look for angela and mei de. they had just moved the stuff to my mum's place. keong had to rush to the hospital cos his friend, jeremy was going for an operation. mei de was really nice to make an extra trip to help me carry keong's backpack and pressies to my mum's place.i accompanied angela while she waited for jeff. felt bad cos she was having a test that day. she had only two and a half hours to change, head to school and probably do some last minute studying. keong and i really appreciate angela and meide's help. they were two of the earliest to come and the latest to go. thanks alot! we owe you guys a treat~!while waiting for keong at home, i was really bored. walked up and down the house. decided to watch television but there was nothing that i could watch. i was glancing around the room, spotted the saturday's newspaper. i thought i might as well make use of this period of time to do something productive. i flipped through the newspaper, found the job section. but i realised i didnt have highlighter in the room.i went to look through the paper bag that we brought back from the chalet, took the highlighter, i was about to go back to the room when my mum's friend stopped me. she told me something i have never ever expected that would happen to my family. still controlling my emotions, i called my aunt after i called keong and told him what happen. my aunt's mobile had no reception so i left her a message.i told her what happened. afterwhich, she told me yet another news.the news that came one after another was a double blow. it hit me so so hard, i was overwhelmed, i totally broke down. but im really glad i had keong by my side. my aunt was so worried when she heard me over the phone, she rushed over.i spent my afternoon with my aunt, mum, keong and 2 of my mum's friend in the living room. we understand and analysed what has happened, tried to work something out. my aunt made a few calls, there was nothing we could do but to wait.meanwhile, keong and i took a nap. we were simply exhausted from the chalet.woke up in the evening, showered and went over my granny's place for dinn. spent the rest of the evening watching television, taking a break from what has happened.to keong: im really sorry that because of me, your birthday turned out to be a really bad day. i promise i will make it up to you when everything gets better. thanks for standing by me, giving me support, encouraging me, caring for me and my family. i'll never know what to do without you. lastly, for just awhile, lets put aside all the unhappiness... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY~!!!to reys and ying xue: im really sorry i cannot make it tomorrow. i know its a very important and significant day for ying xue cos its her 21st birthday. i dont blame you if you are angry but i really have to be there for my family cos its really serious. i promise i will go clubbing with you gals soon.
loves
Monday, March 06, 2006 at 11:13 PM
keong's friends day
he slept only after his family left at 6+.4 hours later, keong was cleaning the toilet while i packed the stuff. we cleaned up the entire place and mopped the floor. had a lil traditional breakfast at $3 which consists of 2 eggs, 2 slices of bread and a coffee. we shared one set cos we were intending to get something else to eat later in the day.we went to my mum's place, made blue, red, purple and green konnayakku jelly. while waiting for the jelly to harden, we went to collect the satay. tried looking for the place for 1/2 hour but to no avail. called the person but she wasnt of much help. we bumped our way around, managed to find the place after like another 15 minutes. parked the bike and took the elevator up. had to wait for awhile before we got our satay. we saw something hilarious when we went downstairs. a pink paper which says we have to pay parking fee of 65cents. we were laughing so hard cos we thought it was really funny.we got home in less than 5 minutes cos the place was so near. we were frying the chicken when the delivery man of the patissier called to say he was already there. great~! what now? i called angela to ask if she could help but she didnt had enough money. so, i told keong to collect the cake while angela helped me with the frying.keong came back after we packed the jelly and chicken, and washed the stuff. he had to do what was left which was mopping the floor. keong and i sent me to savannah to collect the bee hoon my granny cooked before he went back to help angela move the stuff downstairs. i called for a cab and picked up angela and the rest of the stuff at my mum's place.it was 5+ when we got back to the chalet. excited about the cake, i dumped everything down and opened up the cake box. to my disappointment, they spelt keong's name as kung. wtf! i was so pissed, i made keong call them. while he was talking to the person, i was complaining in the background. the more i thought, the angrier i was. but luckily, the lady was nice to do something about it even after receiving full payment. thats what i call service. keong asked his friend to pick up the chocolate tag that the lady promised to make. angela helped us with the balloon deco while we took turns to shower. the chocolate tag arrived with complimentary cakes but the wordings on the tag was smudged. not much of a help i thought. but it was really nice of jeremy to collect the tag on keong's behalf. friends started coming in while i helped angela a lil with the balloons.after we were done with the balloons, we started cracking our brains to how we could save the cake. we thought of melting chocolate, putting it into a paper cone and squeezed the wordings onto the other side of white chocolate which was smudged. so, we went to cheers, bought milk chocolate. excitedly, we went to the bbq pit, made a small aluminium tray and tried to melt the chocolate with some margarine. similarly to the last time i tried, the chocolate thicken and everything clumped together. plan A failed.qin suggested chocolate fudge. we went to cheers but they didnt sell it. plan B failed.i thought for awhile and asked where could we get ice cream. angela replied mac. we bought chocolate sundae, requested the person to separate the chocolate fudge and ice cream. confident, we rushed back to the chalet. i scooped the chocolate fudge into a white plastic bag and angela cut a tiny hole which turned out too big. we tried the second time with a even tinier hole and voila! i practised on a piece of aluminum foil before doing it on the white chocolate.angela and i was so happy and satisfied with the end product. not very professional but it was the best of the worst. anyway, i ran to the bbq pit and asked keong to come to the room. he was touched with our effort. finally, angela and i could have some food. we joined the rest at the bbq pit.at 9.30pm, we started the cake ceremony cos some had to leave. the presentees are lyd, qin, javvy, choon peng, reys, ying xue, joan, gamy, alaric and his gf, gavin and mei de. keong had his short speech thanking everyone. the cake was nice, just a lil sweet.shortly after most of them left, a few other groups came. andrew, kim, sky, jasmine, germaine, zhi yong, aloysius, choy bee and 2 others who i name mr xian and mr quiet. later in the night, it was only keong, angela, mei de, mr xian and mr quiet. angela and i was getting pissed with mr xian cos we could hear his nonsense from the next table.after the lights are turned off, we cleaned up the place and went back to the room. keong, angela, mei de and i started playing mahjong. we spent our time playing mahjong till sunrise. i was so sleepy, i took a short nap.
keong with balloons made by angela
keong's birthday cake
the big photo
sings.. happy birthday day to you...
poly mates
great friends
buddies, keong and mei de
keong and gavin
the guys
gamble addicts who love mandarin green tea. tsk tsk! no good..
loves
Sunday, March 05, 2006 at 10:24 PM
keong's family day
i was packing my stuff when keong came. i went to granny's place to borrow mahjong table and mahjong from my aunt. then, we went to melville to get the CD player. after we got home, we sat down and chose songs to burn into CDs. burnt 5 CDs but one of them couldnt play.with that, we went to my mum's place to get the rest of the stuff. i proposed to bring a trolley along, the kind which a granny would bring to the market. keong frowned cos he already had lotsa stuff to carry. but still, he gave in to me. we had to think of how are we going to take a cab when we had stuff at two places. had a lil quarrel cos we were both feeling frustrated. but we got it sorted out in no time. we went downstairs to ask if the uncle could help look after our stuff for 15 minutes. thereafter, we carried all the stuff downstairs.took the bike back home. called for a cab and took everything we needed. the merz cab driver was really nice to help us load and unload the stuff.luckily, we had the trolley cos it was great help. keong and i managed to carry the stuff to the reception while ronald helped keong to park his bike. we unpacked the stuff, put whatever we had to into the fridge and cabinet. washed whatever we had to before going out to buy more stuff.but before we could do so, his aunts, uncle, granny and cuzies had came. we went out to pick them. thereafter, his uncle drove us to collect the chicken wings. in the car, i was thinking of an excuse to go to tampines so i could buy an ice cream cake from swensens. i suddenly remembered that they have one outlet at pasir ris. when we got back to downtown, we bought ice, power adpator and brush. while walking back to the chalet, the delivery man for satay called. its like we dont even have time to sit down for a moment. we collected the satay and otah, went back to the chalet to help out. a short while later, i told him to go get his contact lense solution from whitesands. i insisted on going to whitesands although he said theres a watson at downtown. i came up with the excuse "i was bored, i want to go for a walk." how lame.we got saline from an optical shop. i made him get food for his granny while i go "shopping". initally he wanted to go together, but i said we were out of time. i got his cake and met him. as expected, he was surprised.had a lil food before the cake ceremony. the mango ice cream cake was pretty nice. took pictures. didnt had a lot to eat at the barbeque. later, my bro came for food with 3 other friends. after dinner, keong and i put up all the decorations except balloons. rested for awhile, showered. i slept while keong entertained his family.
yummy bbq~!
lookalike
wendy and keong
keong with his beloved mummy
keong with granny
keong with becks
wendy and mummy
keong's uncle and aunt (so cute~!)
keong's mango tango
big family photo I
big family photo II
keong's family
keong's family with god-daddy and becks
so sweet..
kai hui with her godparents and keong
how can we miss out the cake ceremony
loves
Saturday, March 04, 2006 at 10:52 PM
shopping for the chalet
keong and i bought bee hoon for breakfast. after breakfast, we went to sheng siong as planned. the sheng siong in bedok is so damn cramped. we bought whatever we had to, which totalled up to 50+.we went straight home cos keong was afraid the hot dog and crab meat would spoil. we put all the frozen food in the fridge and headed to ntuc. bought the rest of the stuff and went home.i wasnt feeling too good, had an ulcer in my throat. keong made me go to the doctor. had to go to the 24 hour clinic cos all the other clinics were closed. the doctor was really classic. he merely asked me whats wrong and he prescribed the medicine without giving me a thorough check. i was in there for like 2 minutes and the freaking fee was 40 bucks.keong decided that he would make me dinner since im unwell. we went to the only supermarket, the kind you cant even remember the name. bought all the ingredients. we were shocked when the bill totalled up to 40+.we walked to the place where i'll always get a cab from. standing some distance behind us was a young couple, the guy was definitely a beng. knowing that they were waiting for a cab, we took a few steps backwards, some sort of signalling that we know that they are waiting for a cab and we would wait till they get a cab.somehow, the impatient beng seems to think that its easier to get a cab if he walked some distance in front of us, probably for the shade. i dont know. i must say it hadnt been their day. a couple of vacant cabs didnt stop for them. then again, probably cos they was standing at a bend so the cabs couldnt see them. and by the time the cabs see them, its too late to stop. there was a citycab who drove past them when the beng flagged and stopped for some others in front. keong and i felt pretty sad for the girl cos it seems like the guy doesnt really bother about her.anyway, a cab happened to stop right infront of us. i had the intention to give up the cab to the couple but they were standing a distance away and they didnt even realised. the couple was still waiting for a cab when we happily head home.i learnt something new. the more impatient you are, the worse the situation would be.we started preparing dinner. the end result was chicken stew, stir-fried vegetable with chicken, mushroom and carrot, and chicken soup with tofu, chicken ball, fishball, mushroom and carrot. sumptous dinner~! it ought to be cos we paid like 40+.after dinner, we watched television. later, keong sent me home.
keong with our dinner
loves
Friday, March 03, 2006 at 10:56 AM
commence of the job hunting
finally, i got around to look for jobs through the internet. i clicked "quick apply" randomly to any job that interests me. anything that is marketing or events. i think i sent like around 8 applications at around 2+.i was doing some contest fulfillment which requires me to walk to and fro the storeroom, mailroom and my desk. i happened to see my handphone blinking when i walked back to my desk. (my handphone is mute :X) surprisingly, it was a call from one of the company to ask me to go for an interview today at 4pm.yay~! my first interview. im sure im gonna embarrass myself but hey! you learn from every experience. i remember seeing something that goes like this, you have to go through 20 interviews to find one job. only when you keep trying, you will find a job so dont give up! okie, i made up the last sentence.i called sarah just now and she told me to just say whatever i want. she said i have to go through many interviews to know exactly what to do. what are the interviewers expecting? what to say and what not to say?when i feel dejected after the interview, i'll come back and look at this entry to make myself feel better. but then again, i might make it the first time round, probably with lotsa luck! haha. wish me luck~!
loves
Thursday, March 02, 2006 at 11:50 AM
miss lazy bum
its 2nd March already. which means i'll be outta in 29 days and guess what? i havent start looking for jobs.. its dreadful. lazy o' me. someone, please wake me up!seriously, i dont feel the pressure whatsoever. i sound like a good-for-nothing bumming around. my ex-colleague has been nice to edit my resume. yesterday, she msged me on msn asking how many resumes have i sent out. i was so embarrassed (partly afraid that she might scold me), i pretended i was busy and didnt replied. i think she'll kill me if she sees this.hmm.. i may be overwhelmed by everything that is happening, i threw my job hunting to the back of my brain. april comes. i think i'll be more excited about the brissie trip than me not finding a job. thats bad.my supervisor just asked me to do lunch together tomorrow, which im really surprised. she used to treat me like a lil sister but lately, i feel her superiority more than anything else. prob she thinks im being too much, prob i havent been doing my job well. i know she must have her reasons. she'll still be the best supervisor to me.i think its time i start looking for jobs. i dont want everyone to be bugging and asking me if i have sent out resumes, started looking for jobs, gone for any interviews. i cannot stand nagging and i dont want to put myself in a situation whereby i'll be stumped. reluctantly as i may be..
loves
Wednesday, March 01, 2006 at 5:19 PM
fly like an angel
im learning to fly like angel.. to not hold on to things and just let them go. its pretty upsetting so all along, i have been running away. i didnt want to cope with it. it affects me when i have to face it.its just like you open the door to your heart and warmly welcome. but all you get in return is the door slammed back at your face. i should stop thinking for others all the time cos at the end of the day, im the one feeling miserable. its tiring to be nice or probably im not doing it right.i have been wondering the reasons to my temperament cos many people says im temperamental. i admit to that, sometimes. prob i think too much? i keep things to myself cos i dont know how to express? i cannot control my emotions? okie.. i know theres no excuse for being attitude.anyhow, i just want to apologise if i have hurt you directly, indirectly, one way or another. my intentions were never to hurt anyone.growing up has never been easy..
loves
