e ones who make a difference..

Tuesday, October 31, 2006 at 8:21 AM

a day of fun

i met up with reys and keong at somerset at around 2pm. we went to kbox as planned. we sang for 5 hours. apart from reys, who frequent k, we were feeling the strain in the throat at the end of it.

it was 7pm when we left cine. we had dinner at the village, the former marche. the village was featured in cleo, its stated that there are more stalls as compared to before. but it seems just the opposite. (i shall go search for the page and upload it)

after dinner, reys and i sent keong off to the taxi-stand. we bumped into bert at the exit. it was nice to see him after so long. he look tired though. jia you bert! we have confidence in you! =)

keong dropped reys and i at the bus stop opp far east. we went to collect her shoes. then, reys suggested we find somewhere to chill. macs was packed so we went to coffee bean. girls will always have endless topics to talk about. before we knew, it was 11pm.

a weekend without work.. feels great!

loves

Monday, October 23, 2006 at 6:00 PM

feeling lazy

so not in the mood to work today.

i know my blog has been pretty boring without pictures. havent taken pictures in a long time cos i think i dont look good in pictures anymore. i used to be photogenic which is not a good thing actually. but at least i feel good looking at the pictures..

i dont know why.. i havent lose or put on weight. maybe its the outbreak and my hair. the hair really makes a big difference. or maybe its the lighting, camera?

pardon me. im bored.

loves

Sunday, October 22, 2006 at 11:24 PM

happy holiday!

21sep
happy deepavali! hope everyone had a good holiday.

i spent my public holiday working. received a call from my client saying that there are some last minute activity and i had to arrange for logistics and manpower. i think im getting immune..

22sep
i met up with keong in the early afternoon for a movie "rob-b-hood". a lil lame but was a light-hearted show. then, we went for lunch at sakae. =)

after lunch, i had to make a trip to thomson plaza, ang mo kio and bishan. yes. for work again.

basically, i worked my weekends away. =(

loves

Friday, October 20, 2006 at 12:44 PM

happy birthdays!

its 20 oct and i want to wish

alaric.. HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!
wishing you with everything that you've wished for.

qiu wang / sky.. HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY!!
remain blissful forever! =)

cai feng.. HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY!!
one year older, time to wake up and face reality.

may you guys be blessed with happiness and health always! =)

loves

12:28 PM

seventh attempt at lesson three

yesterday, i went for my seventh attempt of lesson three. it seems too much of a coincidence that i always take the same number tag. usually, i dont go through the pile of number tags, i would just take whats on top and it just so happens that its always number 11. i decided to take the bike that i've always used - 94. although i've failed like so many times with that bike, but at least im more familiar with it. upon seeing the instructors for the day, my face lit up. its mr nice instructor, the one who had taught me during my second attempt and the best timing among the six attempts.

since i've passed my slope the last lesson, i dont have to worry much about it. then, he brought all of us to warm up at the parade before going to the circuit - figure 8 and crank course. he made us go countless rounds till i wasnt afraid, it made me overcome my phobia. then, it was individual. my timing for the first round was 13 seconds. i was getting the hang of it and my timing improved to 11.1 then 11 seconds. yay! but somehow, i cant seem to change to gear 2 in the crank course.

time to get back our result. the instructor called the first person, lets give him a name - issac. the instructor told issac that he failed in his crank course. i thought to myself, i was doom cos i flunk my crank course as well. then the instructor went on to call the second name, the girl said "so early call my name, i know your style." after he called the fourth name, he said "yar. its my style. i separate the fail and pass. if your name is here, it means you fail. so, the rest of you pass." yay!! finally! after seven attempts. im almost halfway there. the difference between passionate instructors and look-on instructors is in a lesson of 10 students, the passionate instructors would have 7 passing and 3 failing the lesson and vice versa for look-on instructors.

happily, i went home. =)

loves

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 at 7:45 PM

the big day

basically, i failed my sixth attempt at lesson three. i cant overcome the phobia.

have been working ridiculously late the last weekend. i went home on friday at 4+am - 19.5hours, broke my 17hours mark. woke up on sat at around 10am and got to the office at 11am. didnt manage to sleep the whole of saturday. i was sitting in front of this very screen up to 6am, but at least i had keong's company till 4am. took a cab home to shower then to the expo.

the queues were freaking long and chaotic. people were complaining about the long waitings in queues. my first half of the day was hectic, i received calls from my client screaming at me. but at least at the end of the day, she thank val and i for our help.

after 32 hours of working continuously, i was exhausted. i fell asleep the very moment i got home right up to the next day at 9.26am.

loves

7:30 PM

food for thought

ranting about my boss again. i asked him at 8+pm if i could come in at 10am instead of 9am since im working late, till 10+pm tonight. he indirectly said no. saying its my job to finish up my work and its basic work pratice to come in on time. the longer i stay, the higher the possibilty that i'll get depression. madness la!

for once, i wonder if this job is just not right for me. everything is just tumbling down, nothing is going smoothly. not to mention the pathetic benefits my boss is offering. i feel lost and deprived.

some people grow up having a mind on its own, some just have to find it. i was watching television the other day, oprah winfrey's show. the topic of the day was healing mothers, healing daughters

- the first case:
Child, Jordyn
a beautiful three-year-old girl, is obsessed with makeup, she gets frustrated when she cant find the perfect outfit and hairstyle . she demands to put on lipstick. when rejected, she screams and cries and tells her mother "i hate you" and "i don't love you." and the amazing thing - her favorite magazines is the Victoria's Secret catalog.

Mom, Margie
in her childhood years, Margie doesn't ever remember being told that she was beautiful. when Jordyn was born, she wanted better for her daughter but missed the mark in making her feel the inner beauty.

- the second case:
Child, Taylor
four-year-old girl, is afraid of becoming fat. she skips breakfast and take a cup of peaches for lunch. Angela, Taylor's mother, asks, "why are you eating fruits and vegetables?" she replied "because it will make you skinny!" her mom added that she'd be sad if she was fat, and she doesn't think fat people are pretty.

Mom, Angela
she once struggled with anorexia. today, she takes only a palm-size of food at mealtimes and exercises every day.

- the third case:
Child, Nikki
Nikki, a teen model and former captain of her soccer team hates the way she look. she feels good when she smashed the mirror, destroying pictures of herself. she wants to see herself the way other people see her but she failed to do so. and she doesnt know the reason.

Mom, Lynn
Lynn has a family legacy of low self-esteem. she was not value by her mother even though she excelled academically. she suffered from low self-image, she cries and complains about her appearance.

Dr. Robin, the pyschologist, says mothers unconsciously hand down their insecurities to their children. "i call it the passing through the womb wound," she says. "as you were birthing your child through the birth canal, what is passed on are our wounds. … it's a generational curse that must be broken."

i thought it made sense. prob you can think about it.

loves

Monday, October 09, 2006 at 11:55 PM

im a happy girl today

i met my mum at the train station and i accompanied her for her half-yearly visit to the ica building. i helped her to fill in the form and we waited for almost an hour for our number. this is the first time im applying it for my mum cos im 21! instead of applying for 6 months, my mum suggested applying one year. i was enquiring about it when the officer told me i could actually apply five years and so i did. collection was due at 3pm.

my mum and i went to the canteen for lunch. we had mee siam. i told the lady i didnt want the spring onions but apparently, either she didnt understand what i said or i was too soft. as soon as i was done with lunch, i rushed back to the office. my mum called me after her collection to tell me about the good news. shes elated, so am i. =D

later, yuan qin accompanied me to the bank. the rest of the day, my time was occupied by promoters who came one after another. i only left the office at almost 9pm. i got home at 10pm and i happily share the good news with my aunt.

loves

Sunday, October 08, 2006 at 11:31 PM

another week

i feel so lousy.. not being able to handle the stress.

im at my limit whereby i give up. im just taking things slowly, just be it if i cant handle. im no longer striving hard, working all my time out and burning my brain cells.

putting that aside.

saturday, i was about to leave home to go around the locations to make sure the setups were fine. keong made a surprise appearance, with clutches. we went to eastpoint to check on my girl then we had lunch at sakae. next up, we went to ngee ann city. the girls worked so hard that they didnt had time to eat the entire day. for the first time, i bought them dinner out of my own pocket. had the intention to meet up with reys, tried calling her in the morning. but i supposed she was asleep and she would call me when shes awake. didnt get any call from her and i didnt call her again. i guess we were both waiting for one another's call. so anyway, we didnt get to meet up. we are the "bei dong" people. haha. =x

we took a cab to bugis. met up with dan, qin, lyd, choons, javvy, peiwen at billy bombers. qin's birthday celebration. right after dinner, is sent keong home. poor him, having a fever. must be all the walkings. sorry!

sunday, i went for my practical lesson. im still at lesson three. fifth attempt. dammit! the instructor was slightly better than the last. at least he taught me the techniques and all. but i still didnt manage to hit the 11 secs. the crank course supposingly is easier than figure 8, but i developed a phobia from the fall i had. so i was practically travelling on gear 1 throughout the crank course and i got caught by the instructor. i have booked my next lesson on thursday. lets just hope i'll pass. six attempts is more than enough.

loves

Thursday, October 05, 2006 at 10:12 AM

i want a new job!

i cant take it anymore. everything that i have been trying to keep inside is just too much for me to handle.

im working as a project executive and i do all sorts of shyte work. besides planning, logistics and manpower. i have to handle the petty cash on top of all the reports. what am i? yesterday, i just tried to balance the petty cash and it doesnt balance. the amount is freaking half my pay. and usually, in other companies, one person is in-charge of that.

then, i just checked my handphone bill. my boss got me to change my plan and i did as i was told. this month's bill amount to 223 and he's only willing to pay like around 1/3 of it. tell me i should stay.

simply cant take it lying!

loves

Wednesday, October 04, 2006 at 11:58 AM

updates!

finally.. back at work after two days.

last friday, i was working in the office till 1am. lucky thing, i got keong to accompany me. imagine.. me, all alone in the office in an old-looking shophouse with lotsa pubs downstairs. not forgetting the drunkards who shit and piss everywhere. 17 hours in all and guess what my boss says? "its normal." >.<

saturday morning, i went to hougang point to set up the bone scan and registration booth. then, i went to meet reys at orchard mrt. we went to topshop and she finally managed to get 2 tops. lunch was at cine's food court since we cant smoke at long johns. later, we went to hmv. i bought a top and reys bought 2 skirts. i think its been a long time since i last shopped.

in the late evening, we went to chill at coffee express. she showed me a couple of pictures since afternoon and one of which made my hair stand. have you seen the new ciggy boxes with all the gruesome pictures? she actually took a picture of the foetus covered in blood with her handphone and she showed me, even though i refused to see it. similarly, she squealed at the picture of the guy with neck cancer. gross!

we left at 10+pm, she went to play mahjong at eu's house while i went home.

sunday morning, i went to whitesands just to ensure the smooth progress. then, i met reys at bugis. i was slightly late so i met her at seiyu. she already chose a couple of pressies for ya wen's daughter and we made a choice between the few, made payment and went to the service counter to get it wrapped.

while we were waiting for the pressie to be wrapped, i got a call that totally shocked me. keong was on the other side, taking deep breaths while he stuggled to talk. he got into an accident on the PIE. i was completely lost. i called my bro, he brought me some cash (yes, i broke). reys, my bro and i took a cab to ttsh.

the police was still taking his statement when we were on the way there. weird huh? the injured has to take his statement before he could be brought to the hospital. unless hes unconcious or in a critical condition, will they send the injured to the hospital right away. -_-

it was 5 - 10mins later that he emerged from the ambulance. we waited while the doctors reviewed. after 2 hours or so, they pushed him up to his ward. he could still smile, talk and scold people. *tsk tsk* reys, my bro and i left shortly after his family came.

we took a cab to bugis. reys managed to get her bag. then, we took the train to woodlands. we realised we were at the wrong place when we couldnt locate the block. took a cab to ya wen's place. stayed for awhile before ken gave us a ride to the train station. thanks for the ride! (it was really nice and heartwarming talking to you)

monday morning, i took a cab to ttsh. met lyd, dan, qin, jav and choons at ttsh's foodcourt. we had our coffee before going to the ward. keong was weak, drowsy and groggy. due to the morphine and pure oxygen, he had difficulty remembering everyone's name.

i stayed with him till 9+pm before i took a cab home.

tuesday morning, i took the train to ttsh. it was raining heavily when i came out of the exit to ttsh. had the intention to go novena square to get breakfast for keong but i had to dismiss that idea. i went to the food court to get him breakfast before going to the ward. he was already off the drip, morphine and oxygen. all's well and he has already resumed to his normal self.

his camp mates took this golden opportunity to request for book out. haha. the whole time they were at the ward, the ward was filled with their craps and laughter.

similarly, i stayed till 9+pm before i left with his family. on behalf of keong, thank you all for your concern and for coming down to visit him. he appreciate it alot. he's fine now. resumed to his normal self - talkative, noisy, active and bubbly

P.S. Thank you Grace and Lyddd..!!! Love you so much! beyond words can say.. =D

loves