Tuesday, May 27, 2008 at 1:21 PM
off day!
after 4 weeks of morning shifts, i had 2 days off. it is a good break although it would be nice if i could accumulate my ph so i could take a long holiday break like in the months to come. somehow, some part of me wants to go to work. it's funny how my body clock tries to work against me all the time. on my first off day, i woke up at 5.37am. on usual working days, i always have trouble waking up. so far, i'm enjoying my morning shifts, other than having trouble to wake up in the morning. i like to see the bright sky when i leave.i had my most embarassing day at work just few days back and it seems like it has been broadcasted throughout. not only my department knows about it, i was pretty surprised people from other departments heard about it too, not in a good way of course.somehow, i've been feeling really tired and upset lately. i think i might be falling sick soon. *crossed my fingers* on a more positive note, life has been a lil kinder to me lately. it always help to have friends who care. thanks for all the messages from all my lovely friends!!i don't know where life brings me from here but for now, i just want to do what makes me happy.
loves
Saturday, May 17, 2008 at 2:20 PM
sending my warmest wishes
HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY Mei Juan!!!may you be blessed with all the wonderful things in life!!enjoy your special day with your special someone!loving you..
loves
Friday, May 16, 2008 at 11:20 PM
breaking down
i'm having one of my worst day. i fell out with the 2 important persons in my life and it sucks big time. when one thing doesn't go your way, somehow all the rest of the shit will come to you all together in a package. how wonderful! i'm feeling lost and my life is in a total mess. i'm not handling my time well, my finances well. i don't have enough time for family, friends or even myself. yeah.. it doesn't make much sense. i don't know how you do it..distressing..
loves
Sunday, May 11, 2008 at 4:44 AM
miserable
somehow.. i'm back to square one!!
why?! *sobs* i don't know why is this happening? like i haven't suffered enough or probably i'm the one making myself suffer. saddist..
maybe i haven't done enough to really get him out of my life. i wore his ring for more than a month before i took it off. i left his picture in wallet for more than a month before i removed it. and this morning, i just realised i havent changed his name in my contact list.i wish someone can tell me what's going on. why do i feel like he understands me like no one does? he says the right things to comfort me when i'm upset. he makes me smile without much effort. he pampers me like no others. i felt like i was in control of my life then.. but now, i'm lost..
i know everything has ended, tragically. fullstop. i don't bear hopes anymore for the longest time but why am i feeling this way now?Sunday, 11 May 2008, 7:56PM
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Saturday, May 10, 2008 at 8:32 AM
the one you marry ultimately is usually not the one you love most?
i should be almost asleep now.. working the morning shift tmr. i was feeling kinda moody since late afternoon and i really don't know why. i guess subconsciously i might have thought about him and i really hate that. from love to anger to hatred to now.. i don't know how i feel. i certainly don't hate him anymore, but neither do i love (the now) him. somehow, i figured that all that he has said are just a pack of lies, especially the absurd accusation.it's so mentally torturing. i should be over with him by now.. i really need a brainwash.. Saturday, 10 May 2008, 11:42PM
loves
Friday, May 09, 2008 at 1:01 AM
randomly random
after weeks of not blogging, i suddenly don't know what to blog about. hmm.. .. ..
i think 2 weeks back, i got myself a new phone cos the sony ericsson gave me lotsa problems. introducing my new phone: Nokia 6500.
still trying to get used to it. especially the messaging and alarm function cos morning shifts require me to wake up by 5.30am and the alarm tone isn't as loud as my sony ericsson's. overall, i still think its quite cool, up to now, that is.
lately, i watched a couple of movies. funny movies! the first one was harold and kumar, escape from quantanamo bay and over her dead body. i was pretty surprised harold and kumar was categorised M18 considering the nudity involved but nonetheless, its a show worth watching. i kinda like over her dead body acted by Eva Longoria Parker, Paul Rudd and Jason Biggs. the description of the show didn't really interest me but it was the only one i would watch among the other movies. i thought it was quite nice, light-hearted would be the word.
work has been tiring but fulfilling. i've been working morning shifts for 2 weeks. 1 more month to learn everything that i have to know. today, i took my first mc. i had stomach flu attack this morning. i hope my stomach gets well soonest cos i really can't afford to get sick. currently, i'm still trying to learn how to manage my time and finance. i seriously suck in it! i haven't spent much time with my beloved friends. my bank account isn't looking too good as well. soon, i will learn how to, i hope. for now, i really need to get back on track, i think i have been drifting away too much. havent been thinking too much about what i should be thinking. i think i sound pretty lost..
soon, soon.. i'll be back!
some random pictures..
Friday, 08 May 2008, 7:01PM
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Friday, May 02, 2008 at 7:18 PM
update
haven't been updating my blog.. cos i've been so busy with work and my lappy has yet to be fixed. officially started my first week after all the trainings.. not very smooth but i'll work harder. hmm.. life has been good. as usual, i've been going out everyday, doing the things i enjoy doing with enjoyable people.. =) yeah.. thats just about it. it kinda summarised my past 2 weeks. haha. i'll upload pictures when i have the time. till then..
loves
