Sunday, May 11, 2008 at 4:44 AM
miserable
somehow.. i'm back to square one!!
why?! *sobs* i don't know why is this happening? like i haven't suffered enough or probably i'm the one making myself suffer. saddist..
maybe i haven't done enough to really get him out of my life. i wore his ring for more than a month before i took it off. i left his picture in wallet for more than a month before i removed it. and this morning, i just realised i havent changed his name in my contact list.i wish someone can tell me what's going on. why do i feel like he understands me like no one does? he says the right things to comfort me when i'm upset. he makes me smile without much effort. he pampers me like no others. i felt like i was in control of my life then.. but now, i'm lost..
i know everything has ended, tragically. fullstop. i don't bear hopes anymore for the longest time but why am i feeling this way now?Sunday, 11 May 2008, 7:56PM
loves
