run, run, run is what i do best. and now i have a heap of shitloads to clear, i dont know where to start, neither do i have the courage.
i had one of my worse week. yesterday, i ended my last day as a butler in an unpleasant, so-not-expected manner. i screwed up cos i trusted. at the end of the day, for once, i'm glad i'm moving on to new challenges. it seems like peace before the storm. my first two days were so quiet and yesterday, i was slammed. im sure he didnt understand why i was so upset. on my last day, screw ups is the last thing i ever wanted. i tried to smile and tell myself that i have to do my best. when expectations are raised, i fell even harder.
the morale of the team hasnt been great ever since the news was released. i'm having mixed emotions. i should be happy to be one of the 7 to be selected but i've always enjoyed doing both roles. when i think of the things that i wouldnt get to do anymore, it's saddening.
at the end of the day, i try to console myself..
everything happens for a reason.
